Discomfort With Finding Yourself

This is a painting about, well..what the title suggests. The egg represents hope for an answer, in finding comfort in oneself. Hope that you will eventually feel okay in your own skin. I was feeling really off when I sketched this idea out, and it felt good to draw a girl that only felt comfortable if her nose was hidden., better a cone than a hideous (to her) nose.
9 by 12 inches on canvas paper
worked hard on that hand and  egg





Yay!

cutting papers, cleaning glass, cleaning frames..and signing my drawings..and stuff, is what im doing! yAY..foor the show, that will be THIS friday! Im excited.

Collaboration


collaboration between Aldo, and I. We each drew certain 'phases' on it..He started the drawing, then i reshaped a little and inked.. then he shaded more. Then from that point on, we each did our own versions.

"im not done painting faces yet"

I like faces.

There is an artist who did a series of 'blue dog' paintings, his name is George Rodrigue. and his paintings famous.

I can paint whatever I want. And, i think, thats what artists do. they paint what they want to paint. someone will find a piece they like and buy it, or not find one, and move one.
I really love and enjoy what i do.

Okay, heres an entry of words from my mind..and such.

a rant some might call it. ..that i will later add to drafts. So if youre reading this... Lucky you!! heh,..No, just kidding.




skinning and rigging really sucks. Its working very terribly for me. Ive never successfuly rigged or skinned anything..so, it sucks to not be able to do that for my models.

and..because ive never rigged any of my models..ive never gotten the chance to see how they move, and how well i set up my typology. WEll, this lady thing..she isnt so well modled..but i also didnt finish modeling to where i was happy with her..because i had to do more things with her, to get a grade.

So, yes. I think..if i just could work at my own pase, i could do well on a 3d character..maybe id even correctly rig and skin.

I will not do this for a living. I just cant. And for that im happy. but i would like to incorporate 3d models into my paintings at some point. I do somewhat enjoy modeling..i enjoy the end product. and i can stand it. i dont love it.

I do love painting though. Ill make a living of it. I will. and not for the sake of making of living off of it. But because its my passion. to paint, to make finished pretty pieces..and to keep getting better at doing it. And to not have to work jobs ill hate.

Cus..i dont really want to work.

soo.. In conclusion:

I love to paint. soo..i dont really care much, that i suck for not having learned what i should have at school. its not what i want to do.

and, its okay. :)
i just have to make sure to pass all my classes and graduate as soon as possible. so i can leave it behind me..and just have a paper to show for it.


havent worked on this, in two nights or so... but thats what i had.
shall continue working on it soon.